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“I backed my car into a cop car, the other day. Well, he just drove off, sometimes life’s okay.” -Modest Mouse I can’t afford to let anything but God be the center of my life: not health, husband, finances, career, child, house, car, family, friends, hobbies, in whatever order. All of those things can beContinue reading “The only two constants are: Change and Jesus.”

“I know my Identity; my name is Victory.” -Jonathan Nelson “Where does the end of me become the start of you?” -Tears For Fears Anything is a big ask. But I was coming to believe God, was a big God. Family and friends came to move Lily and I back to Vancouver, Washington from Newport.Continue reading ““You can’t do this.””

“Through Valleys of Shadow and Death I am not afraid, By my Father’s breath every star in the sky was made, And who can I fear when you’re standing right here by my side? Always leading, protecting, and guarding my left and my right” -Rivers & Robots “Lord, help us find what You want usContinue reading ““Lord, help us to find what You want us to have.””

“If the future is real, Johnny, you got to heal.”  The Killers 4 months later, after Sean’s delusion to pastor, we moved to Newport, Oregon for his new job. We had the most fantastic view of Yaquina Bay from our home. Just beautiful. The Oregon coast was my favorite place on earth, it still is.Continue reading “A Whole Warehouse of this stuff won’t be enough.”

“I can’t believe what God has done, through us He’s given life to one, but isn’t she lovely made from love.” – Stevie Wonder I wrote on motel stationary. I wrote on napkins. Leaving him notes, pleading, nagging, begging him to stay alive, to change his mind. What if I never saw him again? WhatContinue reading ““You could have it all, my empire of dirt. I will let you down, I will make you hurt.” -Trent Reznor”

“I must be an acrobat to talk like this and act like that…” -U2  During our false start with church ministry, I wanted to bring blessing. Instead, I brought cursing. I hurt a lot of people. I wonder where I might still be doing that. I’m recognizing that for all the knowledge and experience GodContinue reading ““Pride leads to disgrace, but with humility comes wisdom.” Proverbs 11:2″

“He’s not a tame lion.” – C.S. Lewis  “I feel like I am losing my salvation to follow Jesus,” Sean agonized. We had chosen to leave the denomination that we both grew up in, that our parents had grown up in, and that our grandparents and great grandparents had fervently believed in. God called SeanContinue reading “Denomination Domination”

I’ve said, many times, Florida is beautiful!! It’s tropical and exotic but for all the wonderful things Florida is, and for all that it offers, Florida has bugs, lots and lots of bugs. I had some really ridiculously, bad, experiences with bugs while we lived there.  Once, I left an open bag of potting soilContinue reading ““Bedbugs, Ballyhoo” -Echo And The Bunnymen”

“You’re never gonna let me down” -Bethel Music I had never considered, probably because I am selfish and obviously, a bad pet owner, what was best for our Boston Terrier, Ellie. Ellie’s best was never a priority. I never considered there could be a difference between what was best for her and what was bestContinue reading “Ellie in the body of Christ.”

I have waxed on about how frustrated we were in Sidney, and that’s true. We were. But I did have my wonderful friend, Stacey. And Sean had some amazing, flashes of awareness about the impact he was making at his job. The culture in the shop where he worked, when he wasn’t out on theContinue reading ““A vampire or a victim, it depends on who’s around.” U2″